No, this place is not dead. Well, almost. It's on life-support. I plan to be back soon.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Hey, long time since I've done anything here. I'm glad to know my chicken scratchings are still immortalized; at least they're as immortalized as any ephemeral arrangement of electrons can be. Heh, I just wanted to use the word "ephemeral".
I must say this thing is a somewhat sad, derelict little thing. I originally intended it to be yet another of the conservative poly-blogs. I was going to hit the jackpot one day, get Insta-lanched, or blogalanched, or whatever you call it, and my deep ponderings would be read by people across this great land, and my opinion would be courted by the Powers That Be.
There's only one problem with that dream. There are already a Hell of a lot of people chasing it, most of them more qualified than me. Heck, if you're supposed to blog about what you know, I'm pretty much stuck with swords, role playing games, and science fiction, and even those have people more qualified than myself treading the Internet fantastic.
And it doesn't help that the past year, or decade, has seen me dealing with crashing depression. In fact it was a year ago that the VA, who I had gone to get an appointment with a therapist, tried to commit me. Blech.
But in the intervening time, I've made some new friends, found someone I love deeply, and maybe, just maybe, am climbing out of the hole I periodically fell in. I also abortively took a drawing class, and just in general tried to find something that would excite me enough to do more than sit like a lump absorbing the internet one page at a time.
So's anyway, I need to write, to practice, to improve to what I thought I was in my mind. And I'm going to do it here. So if you're interested you can see it. I'll write about politics if it interests me, or books, or movies, or swords. Heck, I might even link to porn if I feel so motivated. But by God, I need to do something, and I might as well do it here. And as always, you're welcome to it.
I must say this thing is a somewhat sad, derelict little thing. I originally intended it to be yet another of the conservative poly-blogs. I was going to hit the jackpot one day, get Insta-lanched, or blogalanched, or whatever you call it, and my deep ponderings would be read by people across this great land, and my opinion would be courted by the Powers That Be.
There's only one problem with that dream. There are already a Hell of a lot of people chasing it, most of them more qualified than me. Heck, if you're supposed to blog about what you know, I'm pretty much stuck with swords, role playing games, and science fiction, and even those have people more qualified than myself treading the Internet fantastic.
And it doesn't help that the past year, or decade, has seen me dealing with crashing depression. In fact it was a year ago that the VA, who I had gone to get an appointment with a therapist, tried to commit me. Blech.
But in the intervening time, I've made some new friends, found someone I love deeply, and maybe, just maybe, am climbing out of the hole I periodically fell in. I also abortively took a drawing class, and just in general tried to find something that would excite me enough to do more than sit like a lump absorbing the internet one page at a time.
So's anyway, I need to write, to practice, to improve to what I thought I was in my mind. And I'm going to do it here. So if you're interested you can see it. I'll write about politics if it interests me, or books, or movies, or swords. Heck, I might even link to porn if I feel so motivated. But by God, I need to do something, and I might as well do it here. And as always, you're welcome to it.
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